…And the day begins… December 29, 2011
Posted by LexiAnnRe in : Blogs On Posts In The PC Forums, Random Posts, Struggles , add a commentHaving a convo back and forth with someone, I feel like shareing it here…
This will prolly be updated through the day… *just trying to find something to keep busy with*
Pain Redefined by Disturbed December 27, 2011
Posted by LexiAnnRe in : Official Songs/Lyrics/Singers, Struggles , add a commentI haven’t heard this song for a really long time, until It popped into my head, and had to go and listen to it. Realizing that it really fits a part of-if not all- of my life right now…
I am doing slightly better than I was earlier today… but its because of numbing out to the best of my abilities right now. I now Cymbalta does this for me (which is pretty much the only reason I believe it helps with the depression), But as my past blogs have recently stated, that is one of those meds that was cold turkey’d Friday night…
I’m still very depressed, but not feeling it so much anymore.. It only shows in the loss in interest in pretty much everything… the lack in motivation… Not really being all here in the head to fully comprehend things, and thinking about just one positive thing about myself, or something that I like about myself, took over 5 minutes. Along with many other signs… such as my dots… yup those…
Anyways, on to the lyrics… (Oh, and Copy and paste from a lyrics site, then add customizations to the looks of the words, And sometimes they are known for not having lyrics right, but this the closest I will be able to get them).
Coming out of the fog.. March 15, 2011
Posted by LexiAnnRe in : Struggles , add a commentFirst, i’m gonna have to try and find a way to change all of the font on this blog skin to a light font, just because it’s unreadable! lol
Second… lately i’ve been in a detached kind of mode, and not really here. I started coming out of it last night. My concentration is still pretty poor as i’m having troubles even typing what i wanted to say here. I find that i like Assemblage 23′s music when I’m in or near the depressed state. Just seems to express my feelings, when i can’t myself.
During this past week, I lost touch with all of my friends and family. and most aren’t talking to me, even tho I’ve started sending texts and calls back to them. I guess that understandable, since I didn’t return any of their calls or texts over the past week.
It also seems that only one comes around ONLY when i’m depressed or in a not content state. … and i’m starting to become aware of things more that I didn’t realize.
Hopefully by writing this, I and anyone else who reads this and is having a hard time now, or in the the future will see there is a glimmer of hope to continue onward for. Things still are looking bad through my eyes, but they aren’t as bad as they were.
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