Mother… May 31, 2011
Posted by LexiAnnRe in : Poems/Lyrics , add a commentShe looks at you,
She believes you,
You say you’ll show,
And then you say no.
She watches for you,
She waits for you,
But you just don’t see,
Who she wants you to be.
She says she needs a mom,
But all you do is play dumb,
She secretly waits,
But all that passes are the dates.
You give her hope,
You made her believe this time might be diffrent,
But Nope,
It’s the same old print.
What must she do,
Just to make you see,
See that setting her up just ain’t cool,
You just set her out into the sea.
That sea has many people,
But none of them are able to fill that role,
You say I’m so feeble,
But it’s my soul that you throw.
I await the call,
You say you’re coming,
But all you do is let me fall,
And now you got me numbing.
Insomnia + ADHD lyrics May 20, 2011
Posted by LexiAnnRe in : Poems/Lyrics , add a commentHello bed,
Hello pillow,
And blanket we meet again,
The night sky has risen yet again.
I watch the clock,
Tick tock,
1, 2, 3,
Tick Tock,
4, 5, 6,
Tick Tock.
Morning comes,
And I’m still laying here awake.
I close my eyes,
And ignore the clock,
7, 8, 9,
My eyes burn,
10, 11, 12,
My legs ache.
And now I give up,
Getting up for the day,
Staying awake until the next night,
Only to stay awake through that as well.
Where’s my lullaby,
I hope this isn’t a sign,
I hope there isn’t anything wrong,
I don’t need anything more than insomnia.
So once again,
I say goodbye,
To the day,
Bring on the night.
Sorry… May 20, 2011
Posted by LexiAnnRe in : Poems/Lyrics , add a commentMoon up above,
Do you see down below?
There are many times I wonder this.
Do the moon and the stars see,
See what all goes on down below?
I found one who helped me survive.
This one I don’t know if I will ever get back.
But look to my eyes,
and you will see,
That I’M SORRY!
So SORRY!
Was it you,
or was it me?
Or was it more of both.
Either way,
I’m just so sorry.
I regret it all!
When I said,
I’m leaving out that door,
I never meant to go…
I was screaming inside,
Tell me to stay.
Tell me that YOU want me around.
Tell me that it’s just not me,
And I’m not holding you down…
But instead you agree,
So I go standing by my word..
Goodbye..
Now these questions circle my mind,
While I just know that I’m sorry…
Our words echo in my mind,
and I cry..
I don’t wanna lose you..
But I guess I must stand by my word…
Goodbye…
So sorry…
Goodbye.
SO SORRY,
Bye bye,
I’m so SORRY!
Goodbye.
Poems.. May 12, 2011
Posted by LexiAnnRe in : Poems/Lyrics , 1 comment so farI Came across some old poems I wrote a very long time ago, (on a forum I once frequented lol)..
- Memories That I Have of You — Mar 4th, 2006 at 11:38am
I walk around this school,
Really not in the school,
I’m else where,
I’m miss you,
I walk down the hallways,
Thinking of you,
Lately I’ve been just breaking down crying,
I miss you,
I remember the days we had that are so similar to this day,
I can’t even write you this song with out,
Crying… I’m crying,
There’s those times in P.E. that I remember a day,
That we were together,
And we sat there, talking like the times wouldn’t end,
How did we not know?
I miss you so,
It’s the weekend, and there’s no where to go,
You’re there with our friends,
But I’m still here. - New Girl –Mar 8th, 2006 at 7:46pm
This new kid is crying,
But you can’t see her tears,
It’s her feelings that she keepslocked up,
It’s been raining, since I came
here,
Now I’m drowning in this flood,
I’ve allways been happy,
But without you, I give up,I guess I’m not that talkative
anymore,
But sis, that’s just me,Well, I,
Will love you sister,
I’ll be here for you, forever,
Even though we are not truesisters,
We’ve been around forever,
We share a middle, and a lastname..
I guess we could be called stepsiblings,
but you, are my best friend,
and your Mom is so nice,
She took me in,I will love you, always,
Now as I look through these
pictures of us,
I notice so many of us,
Theses times here,
that made us laugh,
and made us cry,Here is one,
Of me and you,
Right before I left,
And this was when I cried,
I— Miss You—,The people here don’t see who I
really am,
Some hate me,
Some like me,
But none really see me,I walk down the hallway,
I see so many people walking downthe hallway together talking,
Having fun,
I have no one to talk to,
I feel stared at,
So I just duck my head,
And hurry to class,They think I should just move on,
But I think they are wrong,
Because you are my bestest friend,
and, I miss you…. - You & Me — Mar 8th, 2006 at 7:47pm
I still hear your voice,
I still see you in my dreams,
Forgive me of this weakness,
But I don’t know why,
But without you, it’s hard tosurvive!,
Everytime were together,
We are a team,
We pair up,
And double team,
When we get in trouble,
We always stay be eachothers side,
And when we being thanked, forsomething we did, we both take a
bow,
You are my voice, and I am yournice-ness,
When someone hits you, they hit metoo,
With you around I was never alone,
I want this to last!,I need you by my side,
Because now that I’m alone,
I can’t survive,
I wish I could just go back tothose days,
But I can’t,
Oh why did my parents have to move1,043 miles away from you,
I want you in my life,The good and the bad times,
We’ve been through them all,You make me rise, when I fall,
I need you by my side,
Can’t anyone see that?,
I want to move back,
Why are my parents mad, because I’mhappy,
When I’m happy they never like it,
I need you by my side,But in my dreams,
I still see you,
I wake up crying,
but atleast I still see you,
and I still am accepted,
and I’m not a loner at school,
In my dreams,
We will always see eachother… - Without You — Mar 8th, 2006 at 7:48pm
Remember the time,
When I had to move here,
I had to goto school all alone,
Without you,
I can’t breath!,
I talk to you on the phone, and welook at the moon together,
But I still miss you,
And that I do,I look at all these photographs,
And I show them all off toeveryone,
Oh, I miss you,
By my side,Over there,
And over there,
I really can’t see,
I’m lost without you, - Parents — Mar 8th, 2006 at 7:49pm
It’s over now!,
No need to hide it from all ofthem,
It’s sad, but it’s true,
But you will never understand!,Don’t try to talk me into it agian,
I will believe it,
When I see it,
With my own eyes,
No more lies,“You’re the reason why I miss my
best friends so much,
You’re the one who talked me intocoming,
You’re the one who pressured meevery day,
Well now I relize,
And this is goodbye!,”Yes, that’s what I wish to say,
But I will never be able to standup to you,
- Lonely Girl — Mar 8th, 2006 at 7:50pm
Lonely girl,
Meets another Lonely girl,
I was so on my own,
I felt so on my own,Then you came a long,
I found a true friendship,
And together we became the best,
the Best of friends,Then I had to move,
And this Lonely girl,
Is all alone agian,
And she feels even more alone thanbefore,
Because before you came along,
She knew not of what thisfriendship thing was,
But now she knows what she ismissing,
This Lonely girl,
Cries every day,
She is so lonely,
Nothing will fill this hole,
This Lonely girl,
Needs a friend,
But she knows of not how to dothat,
She’s quiet,
And no one likes quiet,
She tries her best to talk,
But nothing comes out,
And she stays to herself,
Because no one understands,
This place is not for her,
She wants to go back,
to where,
She belongs!. - I Just Want to See You Again — Mar 4th, 2006 at 11:38am
You’re gone,
I’ve gone insane,
When will you re-appear?I’m just some new kid,
Who is stuck in this new place,
And cant get my mind off of you,
I know its stupid,
Because you’re in Texas,
And I’ve gotten no letters from you,
I should quit crying,
But I dont know what else to do,
Your family I miss today,
And I wish they were here today,
But they’re thousand and thousands of miles away,I’m so lonely without you around,
I sit in class,
Remembering the times that we had together,
And I cry daily,As I remember, I forget about where I am,
It seems like I’m there again,
Talking to you,
But as the memory passes,
I find my self in this room,
Full of people, that I do not know,
And soon I start crying,
No one has a clue,
I usually don’t cry like this,
But I miss—you. - I Wanna Go Back — Mar 19th, 2006 at 1:03pm
This is kindof a mix of one of vannassa calltons(sp?) songs, and mine..
She’d do anything to get back there tonight,
She would fight, and compromise,
She’s been wishing on the stars that shine soooo bright,
For the answers to questions, that hurt her tonight,
She must get there, some way,
She can’t find the way,She misses her friends so much,
As she cries, no one understands,
They just think it’s a small prblem,
But they don’t really know why she’s crying,
And they don’t really know why she’s hurting,
If they did would they even care to lend their ear,So at night time, she sits here,
Wishing, to move back to Texas,
Were the weather is nice, and her best friends are always there,Everything happens for reasons that she will never understand,
She wants someone to cuddle her tight,
And tell her it will all be alright,
And she wishes to hear the words “We’re moving back, so pack your bags”,
But instead, it’s this loneliness that she finds. - A Song I Created When I was 13yr — Mar 31st, 2006 at 10:36am
I’ll take a Stand,
And make a diffrence,
In this land,Where we stand free,
Standing here together,
Making it together. - Living So Far Away — July 14, 2006
She lays there “asleep”,
She’s lost in her thoughts,
She wants to go back,
Back to when she had som happyness in her life,She lays here,
Her mind working over time,
“There’s got to be a way to get back there”
She thinks to herself,
She lays there thinking “There’s a way, I just haven’t found it yet”,
She thinks if she keeps thinking on this then the answer might come,
But for a year she has tried, and there’s been no such luck,
So she lays here silently as her insides scream out, and cry out,
Tomorrow is almost here,
But she is still stuck in yesterday,
And refuses to leave it,She acts like she isn’t hurting,
and when people bring up the subject,
They find that she starts tearing up inside,The days that she wishes to go back to,
Everything tells her “It’s the only hope you have left, it’s the only think keeping you going,
But taking much more of this,
Might kill her… - Caitlin — Nov 22nd, 2005 at 7:35pm
I really miss you,
There’s something I gotta say,
The things we did,
The things we said,
Keep coming back to me,
and make me smile agian,Everything thats good in me,
I owe it to you,
Though the distantce thats between us now may seem to be too far,
It will never separate us,
Deep inside, I know you are my bestest buddie, forever and always,
You’re never far,
Your always there in my mind, and my heart,
Even though for now, we had to say goodbye,I walk alone,
These empty streets, and schools,
There is not a second you’re not here with me,
I pretend you’re with me, and I imagine that you’re right in front of me, talking to me, and then, I’m not lonely any more,
I miss you so much, I cry,
As time goes on, I swear to you, you will always be my bestest friend.At school, I seem to make friends,
But once I dont see them for more than a day, its like my sim friendship bar returns to zero… and its weird… I have allways been able to make friends… and keep them… and occationaly, I have made best friends, like you… Which I doubt I will ever have another best friend, just because I allready gots one……. you. - Lonely — Apr 13th, 2006 at 7:17pm
Does anyone want to be my friend,
Or am I just to silent, and weird?,
Am I meant to be here all alone,
With no friends.I miss the past days so much,
I’m stuck in this lonely phase agian,
I want to have friends so bad,
The friends that are always there,
The friends that are there every weekend, or day off from school,
I’m tired of being left home alone,
I’m tired of being lonely,
I’m so sick and tired of not having any close friends here.Is it possible that I may fit in with you,
Is it possible that you may be the one who will be my true friend,
Or am I just giving my hopes up.Even my cousin has left me,
Since we were small we were close,
at a certian age, we thought we might even be twins,
our voice sound the same, no one knew who was talking,
but as age grew,
some how, we have moved on,
And no longer have the fun we once did,
Is it because our parents are in a terrible battle agianst each other,
Oh how I wish this battle would end.. Can’t they see it hurts us.. That It does!So I’m stuck here another day, alone…
Bored out of my mind,
Not even the computer is helping me become unbored,
All I see on the computer are my friends talking to me,
talking about the fun week they will have.. Together..
Is it wrong that I hurt.. Is it wrong that I’m crying.. Is it wrong that I want to be back with them so bad, that I dream about it every night. - Help — 5-31-07
You say I’m okay,
And that I’m going home today,
Why can’t you give me a delay,
Because I’m not ready today.Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
But for some reason,
That’s not true.I’m still sick,
Why can’t you see that,
Why don’t you understand,
I’ll be back.I’m suicidal,
I need Help,
And yet you still send me home,
I just don’t understand.Maybe I wont come back,
Maybe I’ll stay at home,
And maybe I’ll finally succeed,
And then I can be free. - 2: Dr. Patel — Jun 3rd, 2007 at 5:28pm
I’m Getting better,
It just takes time,
Please take more time to get to know me better.I’ll work my hardest,
I’ll do my best,
Give me another chance,
Oh please do that.I wont let you down,
I’m only down,
Please let me know.My heart bleeds for another chance,
Let me show you I wont strike out,
I wont have three strikes out.You’ll see me dance,
You’ll see me sing,
I’ll be the best that I can be,
I hope you’ll see,…..
Thereal… me.
- You Don’t Know Me — 5-26-07
What I try to do,
What I try to be,
You just don’t know,
You just don’t care.I want to be a shinning star,
Not a pile of sticky tar,
I try to be happy,
No in depression knee deep.You think you know me,
You think you know who I want to be,
I stay silent,
And I stay calm,
But that’s all fake workds with fake actions,
I’m really dieing,
dieing from the inside-out. - Not Okay — 5-27-07
“How are you?” you asked,
“I’m good” I replied,Outside I’m fine,
But inside I’m dieing,
What can I do,
To show that I’m not lieing.I’m not okay,
I can’t say “hey”
I want to delay….
Delay that feeling that I’ve had all May,
That feeling of wanting to die,
That feeling I wish that I could kill,
The feeling…. instead of me. - Secrets — 5/5/07
Doors shut,
Curtains closed,
When she does this,
You’d better know,
What’s blooming in her mind.She’ll lie,
She’ll try,
She’ll do anything,
Just to get out,
Out of this juvinile place.She misses her kitty,
She thinks she isn’t pretty,
She knows she’s ditzy,
And her secret isn’t itsy-bitzy.So now she’ll lie,
Just to fly,
She’ll say she’s okay,
Thought it’s only in may,
She’ll die with a big delay.She’s doomed to this place,
She hates this state,
The only way out,
Is to fib.I’m okay,
I really am,
Just let me out,
But you wont see me… again. - Free — 5/8/07
Why can’t I be normal,
I never can dress formal,
I watch outside,
Pass me by,
Through the window.I wish to be free,
And fly through the sunlight,
Even if it’s the night,
I just want to be free.Fridays the day,
That I might go home,
But are they lieing?,
Are they listening?,
I dont want them to listen,
I just wanna be free. - Online .hack, and Yahoo — Feb 8th, 2006 at 9:03pm
I’ve got something to send to you,
It might make you laugh or cry,
How is it going to get to you,
All my friends are here,
But I can’t see you,
Online… Where I like to be,
Online.. My window to the world,
Online… So many things to see,
Online… When are you gonna message me,
Messaging is soo much fun,
But only if you’re there to see it,
When are you gonna be connected again,
All your friends are waiting,
Me, and Danielle, waiting for you,
When are you gonna message me,Next to your name there’s a sign that says “Away”,
But not by mine,
Next to your name there’s a sign that says “Stepped Out”,
But you’re not here,
By my side,Online… Where I like to be,
Online.. My window to the world,
Online… When are you coming back,
Online… My window that let’s me be me,Now Danielle just left,
And I’m sitting here alone,
But you’re still away, not even near me,And now your not online…..
- Little Girl (In The Car) — 10/19/05 9:56pm
The little girl watches,
The little girl knows,
But she dont know what else to do,She tries to close her ears,
But she still hears it all,
She don’t mind the friendly voice in her head,
It’s the loud fighting going on in front of her,
That she wants not to hear,
She cuddles next to the seats,
Hopeing they will give some comfort,
As she turns her cd player up,
She still hears them loud and clear,
But the friendly voice inside her head,
Says “Fear not, God is here”. - Why Must I Be Shy!? — Jan 19th, 2006 at 4:03pm
This friendship feels like it has been forever,
That’s how I feel,
I want to treat you like you’re my best friend,
The only problem is,
That I’m not sure,
that if you feel the same or not,I don’t talk much, that’s a fact,
But as much as I cry,
The tears wont help me,
help me to be un-shy, not embarrased,
I want, with all my heart, to talk, and not sound stupid,
or to talk and just have something to say,
I want to speak,
I want to not be shy,
I’ve prayied sooo much for that day,
when I’m not shy…..You are a best friend to me,
I don’t know if you know that,
I don’t know if you feel the same about me,
or if I’m just some aquantance (sp?),I cry every time I think of this shyness,
I cry every time I see that this will never end,
I guess this is just the person I was meant to be,
Even though I hate it soo much,
I guess I don’t want to be me,
Please, why can’t I be ……. not shy! - I Really — September 19, 2005 9:30pm
I love him,
My friends tell me,
He thought so,
The only problem,
Is I don’t talk much,Oh please,
I beg you,
Don’t let quietness be a problem,
I really like you,
And I really will talk…….. More..I know my friends have told you,
And their your friends too,
I know I’ve told a few of your friends,
“No, I don’t like him”,
But the truth is,
I really do like you,I wait,
And I tell others who aske me out,
No,
I don’t like them,
The only one I love,
Is you,I really don’t know why,
I don’t know if we were meant to be,
I really don’t know,Please tell me you like me too.
- Siblings — September 19, 2005 9:40pm
I used to be an only child,
But now I have a little sister,
Who came along when I was 10yr,
And a little brother Who came along when I was 4yr,And a little brother, who came when I was 12,
And 2 little brothers who came around when I was 14,
And now,
Theres two more,
No he/she doesn’t have a name yet,
And he/she isn’t born yet,
But give it 7 mor months,
And he/she will be here…..This all reminds me of the older sibling I had,
That I only heard about,
Who was 4 years older than I,
But that one passed away before I was born,
And in a total,
That makes,
8 of us,
Thats a lot of siblings. - Miss — 10/17/05 9:23pm
My little sister, and brothers touched that,
I know in everything, that I miss that,
How I go through unpacking my things,
I find little things,
That they left there,
For me to find,A meldewed cookie,
A rubber frog,
A plastic necklace,
They left so many things here,
For me to find,Oh, How I miss them so,
Now as I write this,
I wipe my eyes,
Because I cry,
I just miss them so. - Little Sister — 8-25-2000
Little Sister,
I miss you so much,
Little Sister,
You are my best friend,
Little Sister,
Lets stay friends forever,
All the wishes I made,
I see have finally came true,
I always wanted a sister,
Like you,
Little Sister,
I can’t wait to see you again. - Why — Oct 8th, 2005 at 4:56pm
I look at you,
And I see you,
I Love you,
But you dont see that,
All you see is me being shy,
And all you see is that you are better than I,
But I see us as equal,
Yes you are much smarter than I,
But inside we are both human,
Or atleast I think we are,
But for some reason,
You wont share,
What you know,Why do you treat me like,
I dont know nothing,
Just because I’m a girl,Why do you steal my ideas,
Then take the credit,
And think nothing of it,Why do you hide the things that I want to know,
And you wont share with me,
I have to find out on my own,Why, Oh why,
Must you be this way,
When I love you - Courage — Oct 6th, 2005 at 6:40pm
I need to know,
Do you feel the same for me,
As I feel for you,
I need to know,
If you love me too,
I will never get the courage up,
to ask you if you love me too,
I just don’t think I’m able too,I need to know if you feel the same,
Or am I just the only one here,
That feels like this,
I need to know if you love me too,
Because other wise I just keep wishing on my dreams,
I need to know if you want me too,
For now I feel all alone,
Please,
Tell me,
If you love me too,Because I dont have enough courage to say,
That I love you,
Without knowing,
That you do too. - I Need — Oct 4th, 2005 at 9:32pm
I need my friends here,
I need a friendly atmosphere,
I need my friends,Where is my life,
that I once knew,
Where are my friends,
Did they dissappear too,
I just dont know what I need,
Any more. - Wish — Oct 4th, 2005 at 5:14pm
I see you,
There’s a diffrence,
I wish that I could be like you,You’re smart,
You know it all,
People treat you diffrent,
In a special smart way,
I really wish that I could be like you,You do the things that I’ve allways wanted to,
You allready have a job in what I wanted to be since birth,
I wish that I was as smart as you,
I wish that I could be like you,
Oh, I really just wish, I could be with you. - Shy — 9-3-05
I’m just too shy,
And I don’t know why,
I try my best to be talkative,
But it never works,
Everyone who meets me,
Leaves because of my shyness,
But some how, I still seem to make a few friends,
Oh, why must I be so shy? - Rita — 9-21-05
5:45pm All I was doing, was looking in my note book,
I was sitting in my last period class today,
When All of the sudden, I heard a familular name on tv.
The tv said “Texas is next”, and “Rita is a class 5 hurrican”,
Thats when I stoped,
I stoped looking at my book,
Soon channel one, became the channel my eyes were glued on,
And I heard them say “The affected areas will be, Dallas, Houstan, Irving, and the surronding areas”,
Well that pretty much covers everywhere, anyone I know lives,
My best friends,
My mom,
My Dad,
My sister, and brothers, and the one on the way,
I just sit there in my desk,
I start thinking,
What do I do now,
Rita is coming, And everyone I know is in Texas,
I lived there my whole 18 years,
And now, theres Rita,
What will I do if I go back this summer,
What will I find, will everything still be there,
Will there be anyone whom I know,
Will there be my family, I just dont know,
All of this has me worried,
Oh why, Just tell me why……. Rita. - 18 — 9-19-05
5:06pmI’m leaving today,
Leaving it to change,
I’m now 18,
My life can change now,
So many tied, and twisted memories,
Celebrating a fantasy come true,
I’ve dreamed about this day all of my life,
I’m packing my bags,
I’m finally leaving you,
But some how I’ll miss it,
Yes, I think I’ll really miss it, one day,Now that day has come,
I dreed going back,
But I can’t make it on my own,
Here I am moving back,
I am 18. - You — 9-17-05
11:59pmWhat will you do,
When he asks you,
You’ve waited for that moment for some time now,
You hid what you really feel,
Hopeing to see first, that he loves you too,
Everyone around you, tells you that he likes you,
He has never denied it,
He has just put of answering,
By asking another question in return,
You are scared, that if you become lovers, your friendship will die,
Well he is a good friend,
And thats why, I know,
But what will you say, and do,
When that day comes,
That he will ask you out. - Best Friends — Sept 18th, 2005 at 12:37pm
I go here,
I go there,
It seems I’m never living somewher for long,
I miss my best friends,
Someone who I could talk to, who would understand,
Someone who I would meet down the school hallway to give notes about the day,
Someone, whom was Caitlin, and Danielle,
When will be the next time I see them,
I do not know,
That is why I miss them the most. - Love — September 18, 2005
9:30pmHave I gone boy crazy?,
Hows come, I am in love,
I’ve always guarded my heart,
What happend this time,
I think I’m in love,
Should I ignore this feeling,
Or should I go with the flow. - Friend — 9-3-05
How can you leave me standing alone in this really cold world,
Maybe I’m just too demanding,
Maybe I’m just too shy,
Why do we get mad at each other,As I watch you walk away,
A tear comes down my cheek,
I can’t believe we were such good friends,
And now it seems you don’t even want to see me,I don’t mean to be me,
Please come back, and be my best friend again,
What did I do, to make you hate me this much,Now you’re almost out of sight,
And I am starting to think,
There is no hope for you coming back,
The tears are rolling down my face, and I miss you so,How can you just leave me standing here,
I thought we were best friends,
Please, hear my cries, and turn around,
And come back,I just can’t bare this hurt inside,
I thought we were the best of friends,I’m sorry my best friend, I don’t know what I did, but I’m sorry,
Now you’re out of sight,
And I touch my cheek to find a very wet face,
Please don’t leave me standing here……. alone.
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